A simple word of care and concern, i could not give. A small and simple thing, i messed and screwed it up. I alway think back, must be what i did previously, and perhaps i wasnt good enough to give someone happiness. A wound will eventually heals, but a scar, will forever be a scar. The sense of insecurity, is it from the past? Long long time ago when i planted the root of cause. Every insecurity u said, reminds me of the things i've done.White lie was good, but it wont be when it's revealed. I longed for a stable and pleasant life, a family life i guessed. But now i've realised, i'm simply not ready for it. The commitment to give, the concern and care, i was too selfish. I wished i could suffer alone, but now i caused trouble to others. A simple life, is not that simple indeed.

A Happy ending? nowadays, not every show provides one. If you think you cant provide happiness, might as well give others a chance and not ruining it. 

LOW
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                                                      LOW     ......  This is how i feel.

Long time did not update my blog le,bcos nth much going on lately. Been going to the Gym lately, Bowling suddenly becomes my favourite past time over here in states. Slowly forgetting some long i've been here. Today is my 365th day/ 1 yr in this foreign country. Everyday was like daily routine, nth interesting going on, just simply repeating what i've been doing yesterday. Loneliness also becomes a part in my life, and i'm pretty used to it i must say. Being alone becomes normal, although i hate to be in that state. Seeing my friends each have a family, i felt envious but it's just not going to happen to me in the near future. 1 of my colleagues gets married far too young, age 22 then, and have her husband coming over to states and sign the divorce agreement. Of course there's some exception. Another colleague has been with his gf( now wife) for 8 years and finally deciding in settling down, now pregnant and proceeding with their 2nd phrase in life.

Marriage should not be rush, or just trying to tie someone to u. It's having both parties to agree and really assured that they're meant for each other.

A good marriage should grow and develop gradually from understanding and not impulse.A marriage is a partnership of equality, gentleness, generosity, calm and dedication. Each is a complimentary to the other; giving strength and moral courage to each other; supporting and appreciating the other in caring and providing for the family.

To all the viewers, i'm not trying to show any emotions or feelings while writing this, just simply sharing wad i've seen during this period of stay.

Coach Bag..UP: $398 , Adidas REd and white jacket: UP: $110 SP: $50, Adidas black jacket UP: $120 SP: $55, CK bag UP: $98 SP: $39, White Abercrombie POLO Tee : UP: $60 SP: $28, Stripes Adidas Sweater UP: $90 SP: $51, Oakley black Berm : UP: $38 SP: $10, White stripes Hollister berm UP: $45 SP: $15, Red Hollister Tee UP$27 SP: $ 9.90 Red Adidas Tee UP $24 SP: $16 ALL ADIDAS prod. @ 25% off the final price.. Nike shoes: $29 each :D
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KO again on the long journey to las vegas

Excalibre is the hotel we stay in.





To Be continued. . .

My first NBA match in USA LIVE! Phoenix Suns Vs Detroit Piston :D


Steve Kerr in the house. Ex Chicago bull 3pt shooter w/ jordan

Interview b4 the match begins



warming up..spectators getting seated




















That's all folks.. enjoyed my first live match :) looking forward to the upcoming one in near future :) watching the live match is definitely so much different from tv.. it's the environment, the passion, the crowd tat makes u feel excited :D

I bought this DKNY watch for like usd$65 but seen it online selling at usd$265 sale price.. usual price is usd$375! haha good deal for me rite? :D

Fossil watch i've bought in USA :D first Fossil i owned :D likes it! F.Y.I behind the scene is NBA live match :D
some Polo Ralph that i have bought for my relatives and dad

Armani Exchange Cap :D
An ipod touch 16GB 2nd Gen edition :)


My Oakley collection. One for work, One for driving, one for going out. haha jk

Adidas Jacket..i do not have this colour..so decided to try it :)

The poker chips are actually ligher haha

Gift for my mama :)

Gift for Xiao lulu

Gift for my aunt

Gift for my cousins

Frankly speaking, i got really broke now :~( spent too much..now gotta save for the next trip :D hehe

Second trip to Las vegas, definitely to cover those area that i have yet to cover during the last trip. visited quite alot of beautiful hotels and watched alot of shows over there. We got ourselves a 5stars hotel, MGM is the named of it. We even got the experience to take a ride on the limousine :D a ride of a lifetime. hmm definitely went shopping, it's a Sin City, gambling and shopping etc haha. spent a bomb over there. 5 Months over here and i went twice haha. Alright talk less cos dont tink u viewers would like to read so much.. pictures tell everything ;)

http://www.mgmmiragevacations.com/mgmgrand/accom.asp?OAC=  <--for info.


don look at my kuku hair..that stupid in charge spoilt my plan, caught me for hair too long and told to me cut tat's y turn out like this :~(

My first halloween celebration is in USA! Wow..cant tell u how excited i am. I even got myself a costume that cost ard $50 haha. In singapore, if u ever just walk on the street with the costume, most ppl will think that u're crazy, cos u're perhaps the minority that wore something exotic ard. But over here, parents will even bring their kids to stores that specially opens and sell costume for this ocasion.

In fact, many ppl over here celebrate halloween but didnt know wad's the rational for them to celebrate that haha..i tot i was the "mountain turtle" but they look more like a monkey(cos monkey see monkey do) Lolx =X but i actually got some info abt it from an american, but wasnt sure if tat's the reason. They said on the 1st Nov, it's the ALL SAINTS DAY, therefore, the day before that was named as the evil day. haha dunno and don care, just all out for celebration. =D








Above are the pictures that we took, more in my housemates camera...waiting for him to pass to me haha CiaozZ~

As winter approaching closer, i've got myself a few winter jackets :) have already tasted the feeling of Cold. Past few days, some dramatic changes in the weather have already gave me some heads up abt how winter is like. The Temperature suddenly goes down to 4 degree celsius and i'm in jus a bermuda and a pair of slipper outside shopping. The cold is causing a direct ache to the bone. Words will nv be able to describe how's the feeling was like.

Working long hours for the past 2 weeks. Time passed in a flash to me. Having to see my colleagues went back for home trip and back, makes me yearn to get back home. It's not because it's not good to be here, but singapore is where my family and friends are. Everyday is like repeating over here. Back from work, cook or takeaway, den watch some drama series then sleep. So So Boring!.

Recently jus invested on something which i have been wanted since i've seen it. A Reclinder Chair, another word is a single seater sofa that able to reclinder the leg portion up to support yr leg. usual price is usd$499 and i got it for usd$199. Will take a pic of it when it's delivered to my place:) Good news from management was next week around friday will probably be a dayoff for everyone:D It's been sometime since i got a dayoff. hehe it's a compensation for everyone's hard work and expecting another one at the end of the mth. Planning for a Grand Canyon Trip during the long wkend and a Las vegas retour :D

To Xiao lulu: How are u? didnt talk much recently..we were both busy with work.. Is it hard to maintain a far relationship?? hope u wont lose faith in us wor:) expecting to be back ard Jan. Expecting to see u and hug u in my arm once again. Thank u for everything u've done for me during my trip, helping me to visit my parents :) Love and miss u darling xiao lulu :)

Newly added brand: Hollister.. O NO! shdnt have started shopping online.. Gotta start controlling my spending lo Hehe ^.-

F.Y.I i got the Abercrombie Tee 2 for the price of 1..don ask me y haha tat's y i decided to use the money to get another 2 Tee on the right from Old Navy. haha Graphic Tees are my favourites :D

Below are the shirts that i have bought during my tour :)

 
                                                                  Armani Xchange  Front                                         Back

28 Aug 2008

I work morning shift the day before, but i did not sleep for the entire day -.-" after work on 27 Aug, i had dinner with my frens and went to collect the rental car then to bar to get a drink. By the time we finished packing our bag and ready to go, it was 4.30am. 4 other frens were on the same ride as i. The names as followed, Alex, Qing Jie, Kenneth and Adrian.
  
  

Had Mac for breakfast and then continues with the 6 hrs ride to SAN DIEGO SEA WORLD!

 
Long and endless ride begins. . .


Long journey..it took us 6 hrs to travel from our state to SAn Diego.. gotta catch some slp while we can..

we only got these to accompany thru the journey






Sea World is the First Destination









isn't it cute?

Sparking forehead..so shiny











Next lineup will be the seal performance

Drive thru appearance

their mission is to rescue the sunken ship with their captain aboard.

Everything's set..time to go..

sticking to his butt incase anything happened

coordinating movement

Captain



Dolphin performance

 
 
Dolphin reaching for the flag..high jump champ

hmm i forgotten wad's it name..haha

same thing

Polar bear

close up view



star fish




29 AUG 2008

LEGO LAND









Daytona race track

Close up alittle for u guys to see



concert! but i'm too huge to attend







HollyWood? no it's LegoWood








                                                                                                              spongebob square pant





lego making machine



For yr info. all these are not swt from minitoons

LEGO





                                                                                                                        Lego rose


 


map guide

Stand by the coast of San Diego

Beach on Pacific Ocean



  

Look how fine the sand is. . .

Bay WAtch


Shore Surface after the tide pull off

 







30Aug 2008

To. . . Las Vegas . . .

   
 Outlet mall.. things are very cheap over here.. last time i used to think that tourist attraction area will be selling pretty ex things, but Las Vegas proved me wrong.. things are selling dirt CHEAP! i can spend once and not buying other things when i get back to tucson. haha. . .



My hotel is rite ahead..the tallest Hotel in Las vegas.
                                  Stratosphere

    
                                                                                This lift will be taking us rite to 105th lvl where e viewing pt is

                 
Stratosphere tower entrance ticx                                                              viewing area

 

 

 

 
                                                                                                                                 Map of Vegas



Time for some Sight seeing on the main street of Las Vegas






wad this means is..shopping again!






















































Jap International Buffet
  :d slurp







That's all for CoCa CoLa Store :)





















those above are M & M collectible chocolate dispenser..except for the car








Korean food.. The Restaurant name is DA CHANG JIN

Taiwan food in Las Vegas.






Rollar coaster everywhere in Las Vegas. . .

Some gifts that i've bought during the trip















TO BE CONTINUED. . .

Firstly, to update regards to What happened in august..monsoon season..unpredictable weather.
The weather can be extremely sunny den suddenly dark falls. heavy thunderstorm reported coming our way!




TO. . . . . . .






Dramatic changes occur every now and then. . .

Alrite, next i'll be sharing my trip to phoenix:) hmm didnt took much pictures over there but at least some to show u the way there;)






nice car ;)


hmm my xiao lulu's favourite store hehe too bad doesnt have that in singapore ;)

Next will be some of the clothes i bought here :)
Abercrombie brand etc stuffs which not avail. in singapore









more to come next time :) Next trip. . .SAn Diego & Las Vegas ;) coming in end of August

For yr info. this is not taken in the botanic garden..this is taken along the road side..

hi all viewers..today is 04 August 2008..and it marks the no. 60 days in USA. Now the weather turns out kinda like Singapore. it's the monsoon season. In few more months time, will be expecting winter to arrive. The first time ever winter experience gotta begins soon. Frankly speaking, not very expecting that cause i heard from others that your skin will be extra dry up and it's kinda miserable. -.-"



currently planning my leave for September. My house mate and colleagues are planning on a road trip around the area for 9 days. Grand Canyon will be one of the "must go" places. Gotta grab a look on how it looks like during this period of time, soon winter arrives, definitely that place will turn entirely white, covered with snow.


Grand Canyon


Grand Canyon winter


Everyday passes in a flash, sometime wanna have time to do personal thing also gotta plan. Normal routine will be.. Wake up, breakfast, go to work, come back, out for dinner, cook for next day lunch, sleep. The only free time i have will be after preparation of the next day lunch and before sleep.
Even comes to blogging, gotta really have some free time. Fortunately, today is my Guard off, that's when i can rot at home for the entire day:) free time to do my personal things after i cook my lunch:)

AH getting fatter each day..now even got difficulty in scratching my pigu..


life getting bored being at home..dunno y human can sit like this for the entire day ?


where shd i hang my wishtag? i usually see this in drama ..but this tree looks kinda small


shit there isnt any same species as me in this house..so no choice gotta do with it..shh she's aslp zZzZzZz


ah my beloved one~


if i wanna slp on the sofa..i must mimic how man slp on it then it'll feel better :D


got no water bed so slp in the toilet bowl..easier to release when "nature calls"


owner went out without me again.. haiz no fun..so get myself drink drank drunk then


know the feeling watching the chef while he's doing the dishes? we're now mentally tasting the food :d


ah i got my own mouse while the rest(top pic) are fighting over one...


HaHa just for laugh..edited by jackson :D

Having to eat out everyday is kinda "xiong" simple one meal can easily reach USD$6.00 . But my favourite eat out site will be "IN-N-OUT" <--they sell only 3 types of meals; Hamburger, DoubleDouble & another i forgotten :X haha but imagine they just sell these 3 selections and they got full house almost everyday! Trust me..the doubledouble burger with 2 juicy beef patties beats all the fast food that u've taken! haha no joke man. Another favourite hangout will be the Texas Roadhouse. They sell western food and their servings are so huge that even the ang mo also cant finish eating haha.<---cost usually USD$18.60 (Ribeye steak + Rib combo). As for Dessert, Ben and Jerry are the no. 1 choice. haha cos they only cost USD$1.99 for one tub. Imagine i cant resist and everytime go to the walmart, i'll definitely get one tub to top up haha! and back in singapore they cost so much and u only can afford to try out the diff flavours by getting individual scoop but here is a TUB! =d p.s. my freezer currently got 6 diff flavours =d

Ok now back to some of the food that i've cooked and happened to tak down with camera :)




Curry Chicken..Everyweek will cook once haha


"BO KO LENG" veg is the most commonly found over here. easy to fry too :)


ma po tofu in case u all cant recognise :D


Minced pork egg


Don play play hor, i even learnt how to bao wanton from my senior's wife. haha after that still got mahjong session haha


yummy~

K la.. although those are not those fierce fierce dishes but before i got notice that i coming to USA, i only know how to cook instant noodles -.- But my xiao lulu taught me and now be able to accomplish some of the simple dishes :)
Tat's all for the moment, gotta go and cook for tmr lunch le. ciaoz~

Welcome to Tucson!it's like a desert area pretty hot when i arrived over here.. next will bring u to my new house





This is my new apartment. I'm staying with my housemate/colleague.






This is my living room. Alright i know it's kinda messy,but gotta give me some time to clean up cause my cartons jus arrived not long before i took the pic.





This is my kitchen, not too bad uh?



My laundry room...comes with a washing machine and a dryer. The dryer makes my shirt turns small!



Welcome to my room. simple room for a simple me. At least is neater than my room in singapore :X



Alright, this is my $500USD bed which i bought here. Trust me in sth..the cost of the bed is really worth it, don believe can lay on it..bet u cant wake up on time every morning :X



This is my 42" PHilip FULLHD TV(42PFL3603D/27 is the model no.) which i bought here. cost me less than $1.4kSGD :D and below it is my 80GB PS3. My entertainment corner in USA :D








Welcome to my personal toilet :D





So this is my house :D update next time when everything settles down :)

haha i forced myself to smile. man! u gotta try taking the ride on plane for 26hrs..no joke! on the plane, u can only eat slp watch video den continue the cycle! although the night b4 i did not slp but when i catch my full rest, my friend told me, time jus passed 3 hrs ! another dunno how many hours to go! my friend even got the intention to jump off the plane. haha! he's joking, but if for real, i do can give him a lift :D hehe



finally arriving in LA airport, another flt of 1hr plus will reach the destination! :D





transformer's police car?!




bumberbee? no..of cos..it's bumberbeetle bus

My story begins

i'm in the airport, departing from singapore to USA. Even the sky is sad for me. . .so to back date, i left singapore on the 6th June 2008 for oversea detachment (work oversea) for 2 years. Tucson Arizona USA is the location which i will be situated in.
SAd thing is, my dad was away in Australia to attend my uncle's funeral wake so unable to be there to see me off. My uncle came to fetch me, alone with my mum and xiao lulu to airport. My friends were there to see me off too. Amanda, Julia, Yuling, Ruixiang and Boonhan :)

My apology for the flight that i'm taking, that result in u guys to wake up so early and be there at airport (4am)